I try not to regret anything in my life. I don't think it's worth it. I try to learn from my mistakes which is what I prefer to call these "regrets". I do however feel bad about things from time to time. I feel bad for example about how harsh I might have sounded yesterday regarding my Mom. I don't mean to judge her though I guess that is what I'm doing. I just have body image issues of my own that I can't seem to accept or get rid of. I'm not content with what I have become. Or how much it reminds me of my Mom. I'm driven to change it. I get frustrated with those that lament the way they look and then do nothing about it. I guess that is what has always gotten me so annoyed with my Mom and then in turn made me judge her and disrespect her in that way. I have to let that go and with … [Read more...]

This week it's Aveda's Tourmaline Charged Radiance Mask. The name alone seems to illlicit the need for about three extra exclamation points. I first used this stuff about a month ago at the Aveda Spa in New York. It was part of my facial and I loved how soft my skin felt literally for days. Could have been the rest of the facial as well but I still get a zen like quality over me when I use it. Could also be that it's because I'm doing something nice for myself which in the fat ass cranky pants state I'm in this week anything helps. Still, I like it. I used it last night again and today my face feel soft and dewy but not like an oil slick and it's 89 degrees outside. That's saying something. It also doesn't burn or irritate my skin which is a change from most of these supposed … [Read more...]

SERIOUSLY! Why? Why can't Carson from Queer Eye, Mr. Blackwell and hey, maybe Oprah provide some sort of intervention on this girl? I can't even make fun, it's just too sad. … [Read more...]

The family reunion was not quite like that. Thank God! That would have been sickening. It was nice though. It was nice despite the fact that at one point I found myself standing stock still in the tiny cabin living room watching my mother spin out of control in full on stress mode turning beet red in the face while whirling around the tiny kitchen. At one point my cousin offered her a drink and there was some yelling going on and I just creeped out. Serioulsy, I know I exhibit some of the traits as well but good God it was frightening. I HAD to get out of there! Everyone arrived in the evening for your typical cookout and T.D.'s debut. She requested that we bring her out Cleopatra style but we told her that wasn't quite lake house style and vetoed that type of entrance. Instead I … [Read more...]

Ok! So the first few posts about our trip to the great states of Massachusetts and Rhode Island didn't turn out like I wanted. Seems there's a tiny issue with posting the photos. Meaning, they just aren't. I don't know why. I'm switching back to this site and will continue with our oh so fascinating trip up North. I know you are just dying to know what happens next. Will T.D. fight the psycho squirrel? Will our fearless mother actually admit to her family that she's really trying to write and make a go of it? Well, you all know the answer to that sad question. It's a sad answer.Onward!Day Two: Thursday dawns with the possibility of more "relaxation", family time and the jubilation that we are getting clamcakes today. For those of you who have not ventured into the South County part of RI, … [Read more...]

Don't be hatin' on me jus' cuz I have mad skillz in this here strolla … [Read more...]

I'm going to try and get our trip chronicled and out on the other blog-The Evils this week. We'll see how that goes as I feel like my shit's all apart right now. Feel free to check in though on The Evils throughout the week to see if I've made progress. Feel free to verbally whip me into shape if I haven't. … [Read more...]

So, it's been a few days and I'm getting back into the swing of things. We had a good time with the family. I took a lot of pictures and for the most part it was not problematic in any way. The fact that T.D. is a total beast today is besides the point. There's a ton of laundry to do and various other "back to the real world" crap that needs to be done so this will be short.Some of you out there know that I haven't filled my family in on this little blog I've got going. I decided this week that in person would be a good time. The fact that I accidentally sent my mother a link to it a few weeks ago also added to the fact that I felt the need to come clean so to speak. Scene: Mother and Daughter in tiny cramped very rustic cabin kitchen. Seriously it was tiny. I'm talking maybe 4 ft … [Read more...]

Today I heard something disturbing. It didn't surprise me, only saddened me more than I can say. In a recent survey it was found that only 40% of the U.S. population could name the three branches of the government. But the remaining 60% could name all three of the Stooges. Lovely. I feel so proud. I hate when I see those "man on the street" interviews that Leno or Conan do that ask typical U.S. citizens third grade level U.S. history questions and they get them horrifingly wrong. It's so embarrassing. I cringe. Not just because I was a U.S. History major but because it's elementary stuff. Things we SHOULD know. Recently I saw one of those interviews where they asked high school students questions like: Who is Abraham Lincoln? Not one, I repeat, not one of the ten students shown … [Read more...]

I will be (see above) for a few days. Taking some time with the family unit that is probably much needed. We'll be in peaceful, tranquil woods, in a rather small cabin that only has one bedroom. Oh and did I mention that my parents, H, T.D. and all her baby acoutrements will be with us in this one bedroom peaceful, tranquil wooded abode? Yup. I won't be writing while there. I will be truly resting while I swat cat-sized mosquitos and eat only God knows what. H is leary of the food situation. I am too. I loathe seafood and I think that is on the menu at least once a day while we are there. Somehow though I do think it will be fun. I mean there is clear water, a sandy beach and there WILL BE clamcakes so how bad can it be? See you all in a few days! … [Read more...]