This is by far one of my favorite products to use. I've been using it for 5 years now and while I have tried other alternatives I always go back to this one. Drumroll please.... Murad Self Tanner with you guessed it spf 15. What else would a freckly white girl need? Since I am so white and I hate the thought of skin cancer like everyone else I have been on a quest for the last few years searching for the "perfect" self tanner. Each year magazines bring forth their selections and evaluate them and usually it's the same top 3. Somehow Murad isn't usually one of them but for me, it's the best. It really is streak free! I find that two applications over two days gives me a nice golden color. I used it for my wedding and have continued since then. I've tried others- L'oreal lotion and spray, … [Read more...]

Psycopath: A person with an antisocial personality disorder, manifested in aggressive, perverted, criminal, or amoral behavior without empathy or remorse.Yeah, I agree with that. I have to say it's nice not feeling that way anymore. After talking to my therapist about that whole way too much zoloft thing she said it was actually "normal" to feel this way. Feel? Lady, it was starting to feel like a way of life. One day H. was going to find a secret room in our house riddled with bizarre newspaper clippings complete with red pen markings on them about all my victims. I was honestly seeing the logic behind hurting someone who made me mad. Making me mad was really easy too. It was scary. I was beginning to wonder and question where the line is between knowing this is wrong and no longer … [Read more...]

Am I seeing things or is that a tiny ray of sunshine peeping out from the dark clouds? For a small window of time on my morning commute I wore sunglasses. Not because of the sun glaring in my eyes but from the possibility of sun and my poor cloud induced eyes were straining from that possibility. If you all are watching CNN (which I'm not) or any other major news network I've heard that the coverage about our rain is making it out to be another Katrina/New Orleans type disaster. It's not and we are all ok.That out of the way I had my third therapy session last night. It actually went well and was the best one yet. She stuck to her guns though and threw out that thorny question I loathe, "What do you hope to get from therapy?" Crap! I don't know lady! I don't want to backslide into the … [Read more...]

It's raining here. As you all know by now. Even my Mom knows as she has instructed me in her daily email NOT to drive through puddles. Ok Mom, thanks for the tip. I'll try but seeing as it's rained for FOUR DAYS now it might be a wee bit difficult.So, with this rain comes incredibly bad hair for most of us. Me of the fine, limp hair variety and in serious need of a trim has decided that I am sick of putting my hair up. Yesterday, I tried straightening it. Eeww not a good idea. By the time I reached work it was a frizzy but flat mess. By the end of the day it looked unwashed and plastered to my head. Lovely. Today, I decided to just let it go. I moussed it ( I know so 80s) and blew it sort of dry and was very devil may care about it all. Unlike me and my anal retentiveness I know. It might … [Read more...]

And possibly a case of the Mondays. It's been raining for what already feels like an eternity. It's incredible rain and despite minor delays of sunshine in the rainy onslaught it still feels continuous. It's supposed to be like this all week. It's pretty unreal in some areas. All I want to do is curl up with a good book and come tea or cocoa in my array of special mugs and snooze the day away. Maybe nosh on some cadbury chocolate with my blue bink and the dog and pop in a DVD or two. But, I'm here at work and fighting it. H. is finally feeling better it seems and T.D. is so far not showing signs of the dreaded pox. I hope we sail through this but the incubation period can be long so it might not happen for a bit. I'm just not feeling very kicky right now. I think it's a combo of … [Read more...]

Yeah, it's gross. It's probably the 3 new piles of fresh dog crap that have appeared since this morning. Apparently not even their dog walker knows how to pick up crap. Now here is something really awful. I was out running errands today and I saw something quite amazing. I wanted to capture it on videotape as a "How-to" for my neighbors ( I use that term in the weakest sense of the word). There was the elderly woman walking her dog and she had a leg cast on and a cane. It made it incredibly difficult for to walk. She was barely even hobbling. Then she did the amazing thing. With the cast and cane and dog on leash the old woman bent over and with a tiny green bag she picked up her dog poop. Quite a feat folks. It just made me all the more angry when I came home and found the three … [Read more...]

Dear Mr. Sisto,I am your neighbor from two houses down. It has come to my attention that you also have a lab like I do. I desperately need your advice on a certain pesky pet situation. I don't know how to pick up after my dog. How do you do it sir? I could really use your input. Last week I found quite a large and disturbing pile of dog shite on my front step and I wonder- how on earth did that get there? Did I really let the dog relieve herself on the front step? Am I that blinded by my ultra-cool dark shades? I simply can't recall. Anyhoo, please get back to me asap because I feel some pressing death rays coming from the house that is situated between us.Best Regards,The Kung Fu Master Near You************************************************************************************This letter … [Read more...]

It's day two off the meds. I decided to go CT (cold turkey) rather than wean myself. Actually, I just forgot to take them this morning. I swear this decision couldn't come at a better time. I find myself continuously yelling - SERENITY NOW! Here's how the week is playing out. H. has been sick since last Friday and our schedule has remained busy. I had to leave work early to take T.D. to her four month check up and wouldn't you know all holy hell broke loose. It always does. It's usually due to the same person flying off whatever handle he has a small grasp on. So I get into work today and my office has been torn apart (thanks freak!) and then there's news of impending lay-offs next week. You want a summer vacation?! You've got a summer vacation! In the unemployment line! I'm just really … [Read more...]

Yesterday, I flipped out over the whole weight gain zoloft thing. I did a lot of research on going off it and I won't be quitting cold turkey. H. thinks I should see my dr about it and he's probably right. My therapist will have a field day on my ass when I tell her what I'm doing. I just can't take another freakin' appt in my book or waiting. I'm done. So since the z goes out of the system pretty quick I'm going to half doses and then every other day and then nothing. I don't want anything else. If I feel like I'm needing something I'll go back to my doctor but for now the amount of side effects I have it's not worth it. Did I mention that uncontrollable anger is also one? See my previous posts and you might see a pattern. Along with lack of sex drive, nose bleeds, vivid … [Read more...]

At lunch today I was enjoying (ok not really) Shape magazine. I say not really because this magazine always makes me feel like information overload. That I'm not doing enough to be the best and most in shape I can be. The amount of pressure I feel from reading this magazine or Fitness and sometimes Self is nuts. But I was desperate for something to read and I came upon this little gem. Zoloft, Prozac and Paxil can inhibit your feeling full and increase your appetite making it difficult to maintain or lose weight. Rather, you gain weight! I asked my doctor this and he said- Nope, no way. Yeah right. I knew it. There was NO reason I should have been hungry last night or as hungry as I have been for the last few weeks. People wonder why I'm hostile- it's the freakin' zoloft that's … [Read more...]