This weekend I read Brooke Shields book- 'Down Came the Rain' all about her journey through Post-Partum depression. For the most part it was a very good read. For me anyways. I found what she went through startlingly similar to my bout with PPD. It takes a while for it to go away and the feelings of disconnect, denial and total despair hit me hard. Reading all about her lack of empathy or connection to her daughter was like going back to how I felt regarding T.D. just weeks ago. It took me so long to admit that the way I was feeling was not really me but the PPD and admitting to it. It also made me think back to some of the things my mother had told me about her issue with PPD. Thirty years ago she dealt with it after she stopped nursing me. It took her a long long time to … [Read more...]

How is it that a weekend can be long but short? Relaxing but stressful all at the same time? For weeks I had been planning my off Friday from work. I would get up early but still be sleeping in to some degree- anything past 5 is sleeping in these days! I had an 8 a.m. oil change on my car and then I would head to the gym. I did that- it worked out well. Then I had some errands to run. See a previous post for how I got sucked into the Bermuda Shopping Triangle known as Target. So this is a three day weekend and I only worked two days last week because of the holiday. Those two work days were a blip. But somehow here I am Monday morning feeling as if I never left. Hummpph! Anyway, I continue with my errands on Friday and instead of going to the pool as I had planned I meet H at … [Read more...]

This week I'm highlighting an eye make-up remover that I love. It's extremely gentle and it's by Beauty Without Cruelty. This company was established in 1959 and strives to maintain quality, low price products that are not tested on animals in any way. There are no strong odors in the products and they work really well. My eyes are very sensitive and I wear contacts so BWC's Extra Gentle Eye Make-up Remover works great! It retails for $6.95 off the BWC webpage, that's www.beautywithoutcruelty.com as well as www.drugstore.com. I have been a loyal user for 3 years now and have no plans to change. … [Read more...]

What the heck is it about Target that is like some freakish vortex that sucks you in and makes you spend an obscene amount of money? Today, I went into our newly renovated Target (still not as good as the new one a town over) and I went in to buy sheets and a birthday card. Sheets and a birthday card, sheets and a birthday card. That's it. I swear!!! I need to be on a leash when I go in that store or have one of those zapping dog collars. Oop! Get too close to picking up something not needed! ZAP!!! You get the dog collar. Alas that does not exist and I'm sure Target would discourage use of it in their stores if it did exist. So, what happened? I cruise into the store and get a cart. I'm buying sheets and they can be bulky so a hand basket will not do. That my dear reader was … [Read more...]

Potato Butt!!! I know it's supposed to be chicken butt however, there is a story to this potato butt thing. Last night H and I had finished dinner and I in a nice show of playful affection decided to sit on his lap and take some of the marinade from dinner and... (no this is not going to get all icky on you) and I wiped it on his nose. Not one to be outdone he quickly grabbed a roasted potato and shoved it down the back of my pants and mashed it. Lovely. Pieces of roasted potato clung to my pants and skin getting mixed up with my underwear. I screamed and threw some of the potato at him and immediately took off my pants, not caring if the neighbors saw my behind. The grossest part of it all and having potato in your butt is pretty damn gross is that Lexie thought it was great! There … [Read more...]

K-Fed knows what Brit likes! Kevin Federline is no fool, when the air is thick with "kick him to the curb" advice and rumors he comes home smiling with a fresh load of Wonder Bread and Doritos. … [Read more...]

I might actually have to sit a minute and organize my thoughts here. First, off would be when I picked up T.D. at daycare and I was told "she was a tornado, tsunami and hurricane today!" She was cranky in other words. She's begun to teethe I think and it comes with the drooling. The drooling that I find so disgusting. I'm her Mom and I sometimes wonder shouldn't this stuff not bother me- it's just saliva? But ick! Thick strings of it? GROSS! She's like a freakin' sponge when I pick her up. Nasty!Then I proceed to go home and have a dreary evening at home. It was gray and rainy AGAIN! Why? I'm so sick of the rain! What transpired in our house though last night did not make it any better. Suffice to say I'm still suffering from the dreaded PPD and now not on the meds and I'm working through … [Read more...]

Seriously do I really need to say anymore? I was upset about my butt after the baby and before the baby but this makes me feel loads better! … [Read more...]

It's Wednesday, after the 4th. It feels like a Monday. No, I don't have a "case of the Mondays". I do however, have a lovely sty in my right eye, my throat hurts from smoking (Bad Bad Bad Me) and I went to bed too late for the ungodly time I have to wake up. Oy! Somehow, after two cycles of dishes there are still more in my sink. I think they are cloning each other. So last night while out on my deck with my friend and neighbor smoking and chatting the other neighbors came out to watch the backyard fireworks going on. Yeah, the poop neighbors. Before I go any further, I'm happy to report that I think this fued has ended. Seems their dog walker is partly to blame for the mess and we caught her in the act. That and a notice went out from the HOA this weekend to everyone with the … [Read more...]

It's the 4th of July. How this happened I have no idea. It seems like only moments ago it was March yet at the same time my May birthday feels like eons ago. I love this day. To me it's not complete without sparklers and hearing the snap, pop and boom of a fireworks display. Sadly, I rarely have the luck of seeing such a thing. Crowds always kept my parents away from arguably some the best fireworks in the country each year that were practically in our backyard. I had to be content to listen to them off in the distance. I think that's why today I go so nuts for them. The few times we did go fog usually rolled in off our beaches obscuring the light show so that again only the distant booms could be heard. T.D. is decked out in red, white and blue today in honor of her home baseball … [Read more...]